fadin away

2006-07-31T20:20:00.000-07:00

hmm..bloggies tyms!!!!!

hmm..todae miia m00d...hmm..nortt too sure..guess haii ha0 bahhxx..

hmm..todae mie gortt go sk00l worx..but half-way..ask miia marmie c0me pick mie up goo hm..

yupps...hmm..noe y?..cus...iii gortt a head-ache..plus ..those moron ppl keep saeing mie..haiix..

sad...todae..iin klass..cry..but..no1s noes...except fer miia *darling* ..haiix...

dun0 larrhs...y cum too tiish toopid skool..htn alwaes kana bully..siianx...but..xin ha0 ii smart..gortt defend fer miaself..but..fer nw...marmie..sae carnortt go beat ppl n sae back at ppl lliiao...nahhs...wateva..jus let miia skool

teachers help mie d00 sumtin abt it bahhhx...yuppps...hmm..siianx..fer da tots of mie gg back t00 skool tmr..

makes mie sick agn...hmm..

nahhs..doo suddnely..gortt da tot of zhi sha..hmm..suddenly...feel lyk do alot of silly stuff..

but end up dunch hab...but..iif pain aso awhile niax..mortt lyk pains stills goes on..

hmm..nth sae lerhhs

gtg...stopp here...

2006-07-28T23:11:00.000-07:00

hmm..

berii loong nber bloggies lerhhs..yupps..

jjus tuu much stuff too think over n over agn...

or rather jus tuu much stuff too tink thru...haiix...

yesterdae n todae nber goo skooll..cus on wednesdae gortt a bad fall..

thn goo see doc..doc sae..miia skull de soft tissues swollen..siianx..no wonder iit hurts soo much..

hmm...manii stuff happen in skool past few weeks..ii reiall didnt noe wat too do..soo...

ii resolve by cutting miaself..ii noe iish nortt gonna solve da pro..or rather ii wunt do aniitiin tuu help tt pro..but ii felt helpless...

whenever ii cutt miiaself.. jus felt tt:

ii felt much stronger than the ger who was hurt emotionally.

i wanted to punish miaself for feeling vulnerable.by cutting miaself,

ii could escape fm reality.i could prove to maiself that ii stood firm

when things went awry...

hmm..recently..there iish lyk report on..y teenagers cut themself...

hmm..wana noe the reason y...

REASONS FOR SELF-HARM

-to relieve surpressed feelings

-a form of self-punishment

-to habb a sense of control

-to feel real n alive

-a way to express & communicate emotions

-a trends among peers...

but ..wat ii tiink when teenagers,they...try hard too express...

wat they r trying too tell others..but jus afraid..tt will nber understnad hw they feell..

n ppl ard *CUTTERS*...they will tink iish foolish to cut urself...

but no1s truely understands...wat iish they tinking

deelpy dwn in their hartx..or wats r they feeling...

hmm...but anniwaes jus wana inculdes sum examples ...of cutters behaviors...

hope tt ppl hu reads miia blog...will help fwens tt r cutter..too change..

SELF HARM EHAVIOURS:

-cutting

-hair-pulling

-hitting or brusing oneself

-excessive skin pickling or scraping

-causing abrasions by scrubbing oneself

-breaking bones,banging oneself against sumtin

in retrospect,i didnt want to die

i jus wanted to feel someting..antin...ii

remember when i had jus cut miaself...

ii expcted to feel anguish.however, after

the 1st cut ,all tt ii felt was numbness.

ppl ard mie...sumtyms ask mie

why in the world would sumone willing to hurt themslf?

ppl ard would sae ish silly,over-dramatic or even foolish to cut themself...

but the truth ish even uglier thn u tiink..

these youths have a problem,a disease tts needs to bee confront and solved before the conditions get worse...

THE REASON BEHIND THE PAIN

pyychologists belive tt the underlying reason y a teenager would

hurt himself or herself is normally because of depression.

self mutilation is a way for these youths to cope with n manage their pyschological

problems.the scars are uaually cries for attention.some teenagers actually wanntt ppl

to notcie them,n ask them wats happening...

tts..all fer todae ii tiinkk..

nw nth cld decribe hw ii feel...

no1s truely understands ..haiix....

once a cutter,alwaes 1s...

2006-07-17T20:53:00.000-07:00

hmm...

todae goo back skooll..soo surprise..shirlene cum skooll..siianx..

life gonna bee miserable agn..haiix...todae..actually gud mood derhhs...

but...all the cus iish SHERMAN WONG YIDE fault...he dame cheebye kiia...

no guts...nortt a guy larhhh...fuck off larrhhs...wana play punk wibb mie..

shall see hu iish da loser in da end...wana play ii..wiill play all the way...

anniwaes...tts abt iit..thn ttodae kinda of shouted at mr yeo..omg...

hmm..didnt realise till ii was more on da cool dwn side...hmm..iish lyk..shirlene tiink he askin mie niax...

but..oh cum on...he iish majiam..accusing mie can...fuck off aso larr...mind his own bussiness man...

hmm...anniwaes..guess..he iish still a nice teacher after all..hmm..ii shouted at hiim..surprisely..he did nortt..

scold mie worx..or nortt even tell mie off..

hmm...siianx..thn todae after skooll..went tuu..

COMPASSPOINT wibb galdys[[mia twiny]] ..yupps.. when dere tuu print pics...plus...went dere too buy earrings..yupps..hmm..ii look werid iin tt earring..haas..hmm..thn after tt..we took abus dwn tuu HOUGANG MALL..n meet lydia[[miia gan meii]] ..thn she wibb her fwens...after walkin afew rounds in da mall..we decided tuu goo tAke neoprints...hmm..thn wentna take neo...hmm..thn sae miia ex skool..da classmates..YUCKS...SICKENING can..eeeeeeee....HENG ARGHS!...habbnt eat lunch yet..or elsa puke out ler...hhaas...bleahs...heex...

hmm..siianx...hmm..yupps..

guess ..ii stoop here fer todae..

ps: fer ppl hu usually reads miia blog..jus da lett yoou noe tt..

ii will nortt bee bloogin fer 2 to 3 daes...starting fm tmr..thankx

2006-07-16T21:58:00.000-07:00

hmm..

todae when tuu

SUNTEC to watch PRAITES AND THE CARRIBEAN""THE DEAD MAN"S CHEST

wibb mia marmiie, ah e , no.2 ah e and raphael[no.2 ah e son's]..

yupps..before gg in tuu watch...mie n n mia marmie n ah e ..went tuu THE VIRTUAL LAND...

thn..ii todae at THE VIRTUAL LAND caught 1 dondal duck..jus mia 1st tfy..n ii caught iit..

YEAH YEAH YEAH .. heex

bleahhs...hmm...thn after tt..went tuu compass...heex..

siianx...hmm...

still tiinkin wat tuu wear fer thursdae...siianx...hmm...
guess wearing jeans n mia tt favourite B.U.M C-bakc shirt bahhx...

hmm..yupps...thn accersiors...nortt sure yets...

hmm...buutt geok yyong ask mie wan waer mini skirt mahh..

hmm..feel lyk wearing..butt miia so shortt hw tuu sit dwn on da floor lata...hiiax...

gues wear jeans iish da best..

stopp here fer todae bahhx..

2006-07-15T22:45:00.000-07:00

hmm..berii lonng nber update ler worx..hmm..

actually..last few daes jiu xiiang update..but..tuu stress ler..

duno hw tuu writes..finally..miia stress r alll gone... YEAH YEAH YEAH !!!

hmm...finally..sum of da guys hu wana jiio mie ..in da end gibb up..n of cus..

1 gud ting..ii duch habb tuu eat painkillers annimore...alwaes make mie stress till..head pain..mus

eat painkillers..yupps..hmm.. YEAH YEAH YEAH !!...

hmm..nxt week thurdaes & fridae noo niid wear skkooll UNIFORM... YEAH YEAH YEAH!!..

haas..tiink ii goona goo siiao soon...heex...

guess tuu happiie lerhhs..bahs...hmm...
nw still decidin..wana wear wat tuu skooll tt dae..hees...

wahahaha...hmm..

todae..hanloonng msg mie worx..sae ii fuckin liar...watever..lar...iish hiis mouth carnt doo anitin tuu stoop hiim...thn ii told him..we r over liiao..thn he dame kinda of piss wibb mie...watever larr...ii mean..ii dunch wana do aniitiin wibb it ler...plus...n levels r cuming..wat da point of arguing larr...ii ahbb enough of it..

he doesnt cherish mie when ii stead wibb himm..thn..ask fer a patch...thn ii agree..cus dunch wan him sad..

end up lehh...aso nth happen..lyk wat ii sae...in a relationshiip ..once break le..wana patch iish diffcult..cus..

both parties habb been hurt b4 ler...yupps...heex..

soo here miia advice tuu annione readin tiish:

*if ur ex ever wana ask fer patch,tink twice man...

see iish iit worth it..

dunch waste ur youth n tym on sumtin tt isnt ur worth*

yupps...hmm..soo guess tts abt all bahhx..

2006-07-02T22:03:00.000-07:00

hmm...

todae...when tuu church in da mornin worx..

hmm...thn after church,when tuu LAY GARDEN RESTURANT tuu eat wibb grandma n mia marmie n ah e...

hmmm...after eat fer 1hr plus..we goo bugiis... YEAH!

marmie brought manni stuff todae worx.. YEAH! ...

haas...hmm...jus realise bugis there gortta 1 new mall..

name : BUGIS POINT

yepp...hmm...tiink 1dae mus goo wib gladys...hmm...

yepp...nw great singapore sale ggoonna end lerhhs worx...hmm..

anniwaes...tiish year da great singapore sale..aso nth much larrhs...

hmm...but da PUREMILK LABEL quitex gud larrhh...gortta 30% off plus if yoou r member yoou get 10% additional off...yupp...hmm...actually,todae wana goo buy da NEWBIO skirt..but marmie..sae nortt nice..

sae abiit ah liann...hmm..buutt ii dunch tiink soo lehhs...hmm...dunno her larr...

hmm..ii wana get ZINC bag n I.P ZONE jacket n NEWBIO skirt ....yepp...

hmm...dunoo when can get tiish stuff man...carnt work fer nw lerhhs...examx cuming soon...

plus myee oral iish in da 14 of july....siianx... hmm...jus hope after miia exams ii can goo work agn...

hmm...tiink ii stoop here...

2006-06-29T22:18:00.000-07:00

hmm..

tiish mornin cum menses..siianxx..da whole dae in skkooll slack liiao..thn slp slpet in class

tudae..cus ttuu painn tuu study...yepp..hmm..thn todae iin class..suddenly...henry came tuu tok tuu mie...scare mie siax..duno wat iish he up tuu..hmm..guess,mayb he jus wana bee fwens back bahhx..

jus hope so..bahhx...

hmm..thn todae late dismiss siax...ard 2.3opm..yepp..thn after skool..went tuu kovan wib gladys...

go buy her assements ...yupp..thn...went tuu sit train back tuu hougang...hmm..

thn on da way walk back tuu grandma hse..tot of kelvin agn..siianx...

hmm..tiish tym round...while walkin a car cumin towards mie...gortta yi fu chong dong wana kana car-bang

guess,even if 1dae reaiill car-bang...he aso wunt cum see mie derhhs...hmm...ii m confuse..

geok yong iish right...ii change alot...

ii change tuu another person liiao..nortt miaself annimore..da real mie already DEAD lerhhhs...

ii change tuu a ger tt lost her confident n lst her hartx in doin anniitin lerhhs...

HIS iish miia antidote...da onli 1 hu ii m still breathin on fer..hmmm..

sumtym jus tink....iish he worth miia wait...

listenin tuu wat gladys sae todae...ii tot tuu miiaself...

ii didnt wana put on a brave front annimore...iit hurt soo much...no1s knew hw much ii went thru..n

hw much ii suffer since he dump mie...but at least,i knew he had once lurbb mie tts enough...

stoop here

2006-06-28T23:14:00.000-07:00

hmm..qutiex manii daes nber bloooggy liiao worx..

hmm...todae shoo funnie siax...hmm..

todae..in klass quitex slack worx...nortt much stuff tuu doo..

jus kept eattin in class..wib gladys..yepp..

hmm..thn math period cum liiao...da dame so called *acting form teacher* ...

nber zip hiis pants....make da whole klass laugh lyk crazy....still duno..still keep teaching...

haas...hmm...thn 1 of myee classmate go take picture of hiis unzip pants...lol...

thn worst of all..he aso duno...dame ben dan can..haas....gonna laugh myee head off...

hmm...todae..berii early ard 12.30pm jiu dimiss liiao..hmm..thn mie n gladys go senkang compasspoint..

go dere eat...n go foto shop print our pic ..yepp...hmm..thn saw 1puggol sec guy..look shoo cute..thn ask

fer their email...hmm..yepp...haas...funnie siax...hmm...guess ppl might tiink ii flirt bahhx...sitll lyk kelvin still go ask fer no./email....but...ii jus ask out of fun..didnt reaill want it...hmm..all ii wan iish him...nortt aniione...

hmm...sumtym...ii keep tiinkin iish he worth da wait...plus...ii still dun get it...whyee do ii lub/lyk hiim sooo much...he iish jus a *gangster* tt ii can able tuu find anniwhere in da streets or schools....

hmm...m ii reaill foolish...reaill tuu fall fer hiim....ii hab nth tuu sae le siax....confuse...iish all ii tiink..yupp..

guess ii hab tuu stoop here...

2006-06-24T14:34:00.000-07:00

hmm...todae didnt goo...

cus marmie gortt work...siianx...back fm ah ma hse jus nw..

hmm..yesterdae si beii tired worx..gortt da stoopid flag dae...hmmm...worst of all..

wat da hell..flag dae at TOWN..hmpf...thnsad larr..myee hair kana cut..still go places gortt so aminn ppl derhhs...hmpf..freakkk!!

hmm..hack kares larr...thn yesterdae when

tuu near habour front dre de revovling resturants eat wib

myee ah ma,uncle,uncle' wife ,therese n maruis,n myee marmie of cus...

hmm..thn yesterdae go grandma hse slp...

nber tok on da fone...tuu tired....after change out of myee clothes bath n everytin..dere n dere

ii jus BOOOMM ontu da bed.....hmm...shoo...nice tuu slp...thn mornin rainin..

soo cold....brrrrrrrr..brrr..cold lyk hell..

hmmm..tmr gg tuu skool reopen liiao..yupp..hmm..

jus nw sum1 confess tuu mie agn..wtf..hmm...siianx..agn mie reject him..hmm..

tiink dunwan haf stead beta...wana concentrate on studies...nw myee studies slippin lerhhs..

carnt let tiish gooes on....hmm..mus get back the marks ii use tuu haf...hmm..siianx..

skool reopen..gortt clique study lerhhs..siianx...hmm..study wib them...sae want study end uup iish nort study..iish sae abt trends n fashions n gossips....thn llyk tt no nid study liiao...hmm...siianx...

hmm..nw,fer mie...all ii wan tuu iish tuu buck up on myee maths n science...most important ting..plus...

wana get grade1 fer english,chinses n eoa ,and grade 3 fer cpa ...yupp...jus lyk whenii m in gerx skooll..

hmm..guess ii dunch hab aniimore tym tuu waste..iish fer mie tuu study n aim myee marks..n of cus..

tuu work specaiily hard...ii m soo fard bhind..n laggin lerhhs...hmm mie dun wana go out soo often lerhhs..

jus wana study hard..tts all..

stopp here-

2006-06-22T20:34:00.000-07:00

hmm..

todae berii guaii,,nber goo out...goo cut haiir...piiss off lerhhs...

stoopid aunty.cut myee hair lyk reatared hair ...sad man..thn mum sae tmr bring mie go cut nicer derhhs..

siianx...

totally moodless lerhhs...siianx...hmm..duno wan tuu do wat nw...siianx...

hmm..skool reopenin sn...aww,tts bad man...hmm..early mornin wakie up mus put on da freakin uniform..

hmm...siianx larr...sum1 tell mie wat tuu doo...

hmm..

end here fer todae bahhhx..

2006-06-21T23:26:00.000-07:00

hmm..

tiink qutiex loong nber blog lerrhhs bahhx..hmm

yesterdae,fun dae siax...

goo out wib mum n aunty yesterdae..went tuu parkway , tampines mall , century square

yupp..thn yesterdae went tuu da shop name B.U.M ,goo dere buy clothes..yupp..

myee marmie aso buy siax..hmm..

tokin abt todaae...totally no mood lerhhs...

hmmm...went tuu meet angeline..hmm.thn goo

tuu da stoopid place cor ADMIRATY...hmm..boring place...

thn goo meet denniis..yepp..thn..manii tings happen fm dere larr..

jus feel berii emotionlly n phyiscally hurt nw...

hmm..thn tot of kelvin...tt actaully worstnes da pain...

hmm...dunch noe wat ii cld do nw..tuu stoop da pain...hmmm...jus wan tuu end evverytin once n fer all

wan END MYEE LIFE...

hmm...nw gortt ppl wana jio mie...but ii reject lerhhs...

hmm...cus dunch wana bee invovle in another BGR...lyk wat gene gene di sae...

single aso quitex gud..hmm..guess ii niid a short break nw...at least awhilex ..hmm...

wonderin where iish myeee guardian angel,gonna break sn...hmm..

ii haf lost myee confident n m lostt right nw...

sum1 help mie??

hmm..guess no1 will understand da pain in mie...

hmm..guess ii stoop here fer todae...

nnoo mood annimore...

miissy'imperfection-

2006-06-19T22:58:00.000-07:00

hmm..todae went out

early in da mornin ard 11am...went out wid gladys n lindy ..

went tuu play bowlin...hmm..thnii onli play 1game..thn dey play 2games..yupp..

hmm..thn..saw sihui,liyan,muikian,valeria,caroline...yupp..siianx diao lol..see them..

exspecially..see t muikain face..berii xia lan worx...

till lindy ask whether wana whack ant..haas..funnie siax...hmm..thn after tt..

went tuu hougaang mall meet angline n gene gene di di ...yupp..

thn...ask gene gene leave us alone 1st...thn mie n angelinx..went tuu take neo..haas..todae take neo..

thn print out..berii nice..plus da decor aso berii nice...haas...

wednesdae gg out wid angelinex...

thurdaes go where ii duno yet??

fridae go out wid grace & angeline tuu town...[[boredin n siianx place]]

saturdae go town fer flag dae...

sundae rest....

hmm..todae actually mood norrtt bad derhhs...

but..when tuu see kelvin profile jus nw...hmm..dame sadd nw man...wat does he mean by tish...

tell mie will be serious derhh...thn nw lyk tt..

2006-06-18T16:18:00.000-07:00

hmm...qutie llong nbeer blooggie liiao worx..

hmm... fridae16june2006 whena watch THE NUN..freakin scary lol...

hmmm...ii dame scare worx...hmmmtiink iish scarier thn THE OMEN bahxx...

hmm...jus came back fm BISHAN wif mum, doreen aunt n rosemary aunt..n myee aunt son..

of cus...hmm..jus nw went BISHAN tuu watch GARFIELD 2....siianx..tot iit will bee funnie...

but nortt wat ii expect...hmm..jus whena see kelvin pro...

hmm..isit cus he gortt himself a new ger tts y ,he dump mie...

hmm..ii miiss hiimm..kinda of tui relationship noo trust liiaox...

y...he told mie he will bee serious thn his rest of da other10ex's...siianx...whyy tiish happen tuu mie...

hmm..ii wana noe da reason..of da breakk up...hmm..

dunoo larrh..nw myee everytin jus leave tuu heaven tuu decides larr...ii dunch wana kare annimroe...

ii m tired...tired of being nice,tired of being a nice steady....whyyee carnt ii gett sumtin gud in return...

mus ii reaill end up in tiish way...sob..sniff..sob..sniiff...

haiix..duno larr..jus wana live myee life tuu da fullest ya...hmm..

tiink ii stoop herree...

miss'dead ger-

2006-06-12T21:26:00.000-07:00

bllooooggginnnng tIIIIMMMEEE!!!!!!

guess..myee mood iish changin beta liiao..

hmmm..duno whyyee lehh...mayb cus...

of sum1 bahhx...

hmm...guess wat..todae went tuu hougang mall wid

alice ,fer lunch..after lunch..as usual went fer a walk ard da shops...

hmm..dunoo y fer a suddenly...

jus went intu da neoprints shopp..

n wanted tuu catch a miinniie mousey...

hmm..out of mye surprsie....ii tot ii cldnt haf caught it..

but...YEAH YEAH YEAH...ii caught it..hmmm..

soo happie siiax...ever since he dump mie...

hafnt bee soo happie ler...

yeah..hmm...lurve myee minniine mousey tuu bitttss...

haas...

stooooopp here

2006-06-09T22:51:00.001-07:00

todae iish poiilee burthdae...
yepp...thn todae...miie , glad , lin ,alice n yanhuii...
went poiilee hse....yupp...
siianx..after tt went tuu plaza sin...
go watch movie wid, jingweii n desmond n ry ....yupp...actaull han aso gortt goo de..butt he over-slept le..
hmpf...nber mind....thn todae we watch THE OMEN ...freak lol....soo freak scarin...
ii scream lol...tiink non of da guys noe bahxx...
haiiyoooxx..scary lyk hell..
hmmm...thn after da movie, meet myee gan dii dii...gene gene...yepp..
actaully..hee norrt bad larr...yepp...hmmm...
soo siianx thn after meet liiao..ask dii dii peii miee walk hm..yepp...
haas...thn tell dii dii manii things...chatted wid abt manii tings tuu....
thn learn he scare ghost de...haas...sooo funnie...
but...hmm...finally found sum1 same as mie scare of CATS de liiaoxx...
haas...can yoou blive iit myee dii dii scare off CATS..hmm..haas..tiink dun laugh le..mie aso norrtt anii betta..
siianx...myee mood geeting better jus by ali'tle bahx..tink gortt o.o1% bahx....
tiink ends here bahx....

miissy dead oney ger**

2006-06-09T22:51:00.000-07:00

todae iish poiilee burthdae...
yepp...thn todae...miie , glad , lin ,alice n yanhuii...
went poiilee hse....yupp...
siianx..after tt went tuu plaza sin...
go watch movie wid, jingweii n desmond n ry....yupp...actaull han aso gortt goo de..butt he over-slept le..
hmpf...nber mind....thn todae we watch THE OMEN ...freak lol....soo freak scarin...
ii scream lol...tiink non of da guys noe bahxx...
haiiyoooxx..scary lyk hell..
hmmm...thn after da movie, meet myee gan dii dii...gene gene...yepp..
actaully..hee norrt bad larr...yepp...hmmm...
soo siianx thn after meet liiao..ask dii dii peii miee walk hm..yepp...
haas...thn tell dii dii manii things...chatted wid abt manii tings tuu....
thn learn he scare ghost de...haas...sooo funnie...
but...hmm...finally found sum1 same as mie scare of CATS de liiaoxx...
haas...can yoou blive iit myee dii dii scare off CATS..hmm..haas..tiink dun laugh le..mie aso norrtt anii betta..
siianx...myee mood geeting better jus by ali'tle bahx..tink gortt o.o1% bahx....
tiink ends here bahx....

miissy dead oney ger**

2006-06-08T20:18:00.000-07:00

blooggin tym!!!

hmmm...todae..marmie off-dae agn...

wentt out wid marmie , grandma , threses n maruis....

tuu...parkway...

iish quite fun larrr...

yupp...butt myee mood iish still da same didnt change anii beta...

mayb did..didnt kaarres or noe annimore...

jus noe tt ii lost da internal smile on myee face ...jus one sentence *LET US PART,I WUNT HAF TYM FER YOU*

knowin tiish wld happen,butt...nber realise iit wld happen sooo sn....

tot ii will nber cry cus of kelvin....butt iit was worst thn ii tot...

ii nortt onlii cry..but cld feel da hurt he left...

sobxx...

on 25th may 2006 ...ask mie tuu bee ur ger..

tellin mie..yoou will bee serious in da relationshipp..

nw wonderin r yoou tellin da truth...

ii jus wana noe whether haf yoou ever love miee..tts all..

hmmm..tiink after soo manii things haf happen,ii shld grow more strong bahxx..

juss hope..my smilexx will return tuu mie agn..

miisy oney dead ger-

2006-06-07T20:04:00.000-07:00

todae come back hm berii early..didnt take diinner tonitexx..

nooo appietie....

todae didnt gooo at all..jus stay at grandma hse....

tiinkin abt manii stuff...

tot abt kelvin n gordon...

jus tot of hw gordon hurt mie..follow by kelvin...

being hurt badly nw...

thn jus online norrtt loong ago...

shannon send mie a song...

tt iish rather meaningful..hear liiao ii cry...nortt tt ii

m emotional but..jus tot...of hw much ii hurt shannon yet he still care fer mie..

ppl often dun cherish da tings,they love or lyk it...tilll they lose it thn they regret it...

but...fer kelvin n gordon...ii noe ii did cherish iit...

has fer shannon ..didnt cherish tt much...dun might feel regret...but...

nw iish da past...sumtings ii haf tuu let go...but...ii carnt lett go...lyk iit seems soo easy...

stooop here.....

ms onely-

2006-06-06T12:27:00.000-07:00

toodae...

went out wid gladys...went tuu hougang point 1st...

cus meet her dere ma..yup..

thn...actaull wana go catch the movie *the omen* de..but..sshe carnt make it..so...

we jus went tuu compasspoint wid lindy tuu...

at dere carnt find da present..

shoo ii decided tuu go tuu ps...

thn ask myee jie...*fong teng along lol...

yupp..

thn..went tuu ps..onli..tuu noe tt wang zii* was dere wid hiis fwens tuu..

ya...jus gortt a shock of my life larr..haass...

everytin went soo happily well..onli after takin finish neoprints wid jie..

kelvin msg...sugestin we shld part....reason givin mie..wldnt haf tym fer mie...

still tiinkin was iit fer real or rather..was iit he two-timing mie...

iif he real did two-tym mie..ii rather he told da truth...nahh...actualy..ii guess we wunt last long liiao..

see da way he treat miee..ii guuess itt..but hu haf iit guess..iit will happen shoo fast....

**sumtym..tings jus dun go our way...we haf tuu leave iit tuu fate...iif iish norrt urs..iit will norrt bee urs..no matter hw hard yoou try...**

nahhxx...tiink jus after afew crys..ii wiill bee alrites bahxx...

tym will heal everytin...lyk wat jie sae **guys are nortt depenable on or rather trust on**...

but...as ii see..norrtt all guys r lyk tiish...

yupp...

tiink ii stoopp here..fer todaes....

ms oney-

2006-06-05T23:24:00.000-07:00

todae..ii shoo guai siaxx...
stay at hm..
as usual..waiitin fer hiim tuu relpy or rather wait fer tuu bee free lol...
yupp..heex...
jus nw cry agn..mayb..da way he treat mie quite cold..non of myee ex treat mie tiish way bahx..
noein tt ii haf done myee part as a stead...ya...
dunoo watxx tuu sae le larr..
tiish daes..myee mood iish bad...
exspeciially , myee temper..
getiin bad le...
haiix..mayb..noo mood..thn tuu upsad le bahx..yupp..
tiink end here...

2006-06-04T17:43:00.000-07:00

haiiz...berii loong nvber blog liiao worx..

siianx...

nw noo mood...jus cry fiiniish norrtt loong ago..siianx..

cus off him* ....

haiix...sad...

aso cus of other ppl tuu...

siianx larrhxx..

whole dae tinkin..why..mus they* lyk mie...

wat m ii gud at...

ii m nortt chio or adorable or rather intelligent...

aso norrtt sae gortt figure or watever shiit lol...

gett miiee upsad..n get themself* upsad jus cus of mie...

iish da most stoopid ting tuu get upsadd off...

fer miie...

ii dunoo larrhx...

ii noe ii haf done wat a stead shld done le..tiink iish enough le..

ii m tired...jus wan sum care n love fm hiim* tts all..iisiit tt diffcult...

siianx,lonely n sad...iish wat ii m feelinxx nw...

did he realise..nope...

being hiss* gerx is diffcult...but ii will still bee cus ii love hiim* ...

miiss hiim* shoo much,but..did he* realise..no,ii tink...

haiix...haf ii done wrong sumtinx...non of myee ex's treat mie tiish way...felt reail upsad over it..

everydae...waitin fer him* tuu msg iish myee usual routine....hiiax...

askin hiim* out,tokin on da fone...iish diffcult....

hw ii wiish ii cld hug hiim* agn....

miiss hiim* shoo much.....

2006-05-27T12:33:00.000-07:00

berii loong nbere blog liiao...

heexx...

finally found yooou* niaox lehhh..heexx...

happie....bleahxx...aii sii nii le....

siianx..nw yoou* in green[studyin] thn ii at hm...

heexx...miiss yoou* shoo much..but...still mus wait fer yoou* study fiiniish 1st..hheexx...

still tiinkiin off yoou* nw worx...heexx...aii nii...

siianx...nw at hm nth tuu do much....

tiink stoop here....

-----blinded by yoour lurve------

2006-05-25T21:32:00.000-07:00

back agn...

tonitex...cum back earlier...

siianx...still feelin ratheer dw....

carnt stoopp tearing....

sobxxx....

nw jus wana noe more fwens....

haiix...sad...

tmr...parent-meetin dae le...

dunoo wat will myee teacher sae abt miee...

siianx....

wat shld ii doo nw...

nw onlii noe how tuu hear sad sad song..haiiz...

wat shld ii do...

haiix...

found two pomes

tt kinda of suit my state nw...

there it goes:

keeping up appearences.Fooling my selfish heart.You say you love me , don't do it again.

I'm so confused.Please tell me what's happening.I want her to read me.The blazing mind of an apple pie.I'm lost , I'm lost.Fall so hard , I'll never be able to get up again.Indecipherable words I scribble on my wall.I want to stop pretending.I might not be able to take it any longer. You mean I'm supposet to leave my roots on this ground forever? Why must I do so? Vaguely familiar , I sold my soul to work yesterday.Maybe I'm tired but I doubt so.I'm so scared , help?

I'm falling for what is wrong and will never be meant for me.

Could you be my answer Could you tell me that I amThe perfect one for you You're the perfect one for me Could you be too faithful Could you show me anymoreIt's the perfect thing to do It's the perfect thing for meOn and on I see you The life that comes togetherTo see that we're foreverOn and on I see you The times we've spent togetherThe times that last foreverAnd now we will find our way It's the way that we'll find this day And I know you belong to meCould you lead me on?

tts abt it...than....

end--------lonely soul

2006-05-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

jus afew daes nber blog happen shoo manii things liiaox...
siianx...ii dame heart-broken siax...
haiizzz...todae nber goo skool,dun feel lyk gg....mayb tuu sad le ba...
after manii cryings n cutting of miesself,ii realise...sumtym iish norrt worth it tuu do tt...
but sumhw,ii still did it....nw....*he does tt tuu mie...tot ii would get comfort fm myee besttiis fwen....end up....aiya..she also another 1,disappoint mie tym n tym...ii m tired of iiit..
anniiwaes,sumtym in life rights...
there r manii ups n dwn..jus mus learn hw tuu stand up fm where yoou fall...can le...
but fm my view manii ppl tends tuu fall in relationship matters n ish hard tuu get up agn...
iish da hurtx tt issh cusing them....
mayb lyk wat ppl sae.... [[tym will heal everytin]]
fer miee ar...ii dunO lehh...
shld ii waiit or ant....iif wait..but there iish noo outcum lyk in da past...ii tink iish a waste of tym,
but ii sumhw feel ii shld wait...ii mean at least ii trying waitin b4....beta thn ii sit there...missing him...but nber try...right...
nw jus wana relax myself..yupp..
oh ya n 1ting...
nber nbeer choosse a stead in a harsh..as mayb there r more beta 1s tuu choose....
anniwaes da future iish in every1s hand...jus needa see..hw u handle it..tts all
end----lonely spirit

2006-05-21T18:15:00.000-07:00

finally..norrtt berii tired liiaox..haas...

berii long nber blog le...qutie tired recently...jus dun feel lyk bloggin..ya..

manii tings happen...but...fm tish manii tings...ii learn alot..exspecially,frenship....

actually,frenshiip iish norrt everytin...sometym..fwens cld ps u cus of a guy...

but fer mie a will nv will....tink ii dun wana brood over tish matter aniimore...

''yooou keep saeing,yoou norrtt purposely or wunt do liiao''...bullshiit larr..still ps mie right...

watx da point...tuu tell miee...

unless..u do it by action...ii noe iii shldnt bee selfish...

sae watever yoou lyk..u might tink ii m selfish or unreasonable...but if yoou r in myee shoes...

will yoou tink of tish tuu....ish tt our fwenship ish as light as a feather tts all ii haf change,

yoou sae ii change....but,yoou are da 1s hu change....ever yooou found urself a guy....haiix...

ii haf nth tuu sae aniimore...

buutt...iish okiex...

ppl do falll dwn in life,jus needa stand up agn can le....

yupp...iish wastin my tym on tiish kind of stuff,jus wana lead happie life....

yupp..

recently...took afew pic of myself...

tink ii haf change alot...norrt sae ii thick-skin....

butt...reaiill change...

nahhx..tinkk ii stoop here ba....

heex....

2006-04-17T23:17:00.000-07:00

todae...

nber goo skooll...

*sick* le....

haiix....berii lonng nber blog...

can sae ish noo mood bahx....

ii dunno understand....

why must *she* wei le yi ke guy...er ps miie...

ish a guy...more important thn our fwenship...

alwaes..tot ii understand her...but..nw ii realise...

tts norrt true...didnt understand *her* well enough...

nw ii regret....if onli..ii didnt trust *her* ...

mayb...probably...ii wldnt haf end in tish state nw....

it hurtx....

there ish two tings...

cld hurt a human badly...

they r...

fwenship n relationship....

as fwen or stead..ii tink ii did it badly....

haiix....

nw...

ii feel guilty...cus of *han ping....

ii feel reaiil guilty...though ii reject him fer patchin up...

ii jus tink tt ii m very cruel tuu himm..

manii sae..he ought tuu be given a chance....

but...ii didnt wana make any more mistakes...

everytym ii stead wid a guy...

ii noe ii haf hurtx another guy....

guitly...ish all ii have been feelin since....

*14o5o5* ... ii didnt wan it tuu happen in this way...

probably....haf knn hurtx by marcus & tyron tuu deep le bahxx...

jus..tink if ii gonna stead wit a guyxx...ii may haf a high possibilies..of gettin badly..

hurtx agn....

ii recently know a fwen...

myee tt fwen told miiee..tt...

in ish world ..during secondary skooll life...

if u gt a stead....n if da stead were tuu sae..iiloveyoou4va...

dere ish noo 4va....

no1 wld know...wat will happen nxt...

but my fwen once told miie....

dere was once...her ex gerx..told him...

sumtin tt surprise him...tt ish different fm ither ger...

da gerx said...

ii cant promise tuu love u 4va,as no1 noe wat will happen tmr..

but ii could asure u tt fer nw ii would love yoou...

tink ii shall end heeree....

2006-04-12T22:07:00.000-07:00

todae...

gt go skool...

siianx..larr..

todae...

alice & gladys ..cum myee hse....

yupp..

everytin goes happiely well..till

mr lee called....

haiix....

he said...

sumtin tt myee heart stoop fer awhilex...

haiix...

mr lee ...

sae ii tish yr cant take myee mid-yr & "N" level

siianx larrr....worst of all...

still sae...even ii take aso everytin FAIL de...

haiizyox...feel lyk gg tuu pon skool agn...jus recover fm wat

mr goh

thn nw lyk tt agn...

F*UCK MAN....

guess wat..da 1st tink tt came tuu myee mind...

when mr lee ... told miie,ii m gonna

fail everytin...

ii started tuu tink of slashin myee wrist agn..haiix...

haiyox...wat tots ii haf....

siianx....

ii m jus tuu dumb le...

nw guess watx myee feelinx nw...

ii m norttxx berii sure tuu...

should ii feel...

happie? sad? depress?

hw shld ii feel abt da everytin...

nvber mind...ii m tuu blame fer everytin larrr...

watt shld ii doo nw...

nw tt ii m land in tish state..

ii m tuu blame fer todae...state larrr..

ii feell tt ii m lackin of care..tish few daes..

ii wan sum1 tuu bee dere fer miie....

when ii nid a listenin ear or rather a shoulder tuu lie on..

haiiz....

tish month berii dao meii ....

alwaes...gt shoo manii sad tings happen...

tink ii shall stoop here...fer todae ba....

2006-04-11T22:56:00.000-07:00

todae...

morning..gg tuu eat breakfast att

hougang plaza dere...

dame f*cking sway lorrr....

hiiaz..knn scoldin fm a grp of bu san bu si....

hiiaz...

siianx...larr...soo unreasonable...

nber answer them thn knn scolding liiao....

siianx...haas...todae..gt chinses oral worx..teacher sae ii did quite well..

yeah!..but jus try nt tuu sae tuu much english de...yupp..

yeah!..at least get abt 33 marks..yeah!..haas...ii todae siiaox liiao larr...

haas...

thn..todae...

go hougang mall wid alice & glad..after skool...haas..

go watson buy myee foundation..yupp..

thn tmr gg buy marscara..yupp...

haas....

tink goona stop here larr...

haas

2006-04-10T23:02:00.000-07:00

haas...todae...

ii go skool siax...tish tym..nber early in da morning

chao dun wana go skool...haas...

tmr...last dae of myee cpa course work..YEAH!....

haas....

ermx..todae..ii berii guaii nber goo out..haas...

tink tmr ii gg out...confirm de..haas....

yupp..tink ii stoop here...kinda of late le...

-stooop here

2006-04-08T21:31:00.000-07:00

siianx...came back hm todae worx...

cusx miie younger coursinx nber cum tuu grandma hse.. yupp..siianx..

ii feelinx...sad lately...due tuu last fridae...

ii m hurtx once agn....

ii wishh ii m dead....

does true lurve exits....ii tot ii found ^yoou^ ..but...

iit turn out tuu bee...ii m hurtx agn...iit seems

lyk tish tym ii haf been hurtx badly..jus lyk in da

past **he** hurtx miie tt kind of feelinx...

at tyms...ii do wish tt **yoou** r by my side agn...

ii noe tt ish imposiible...nw...ii didnt wana expect anitin aniimore..

all ii wan ish..tuu keepp **yooou** as my most

perious memories nw....nv tuu ferget **yoou**

ii reaill miisss **yoou** badly...

till nw ii still blame myself fer nt cherishing **yoou** well...

even hw bad ppl sae **yoou** ..or even **yooou** r a flirt..ii wld still wan

yoou back..

buut nw everytin ish tuu late tuu turn back...

iif onli ii gt da chance tuu see **yoou** agn...

ii wld wana hug **yooou** n sae..ii still love **yoou**

jus lyk in da past...iif onil **yoou** knew hw ii feel nw...

tt will bee great...ii dun request much....

but ii jus wana see **yoou** agn..jus fer da last tym....even fer 5mins....

ii m happy tuu...iit hurt miie..in da past...

whenever ii see **yoou** having bad mood or either hurtx by other gers....

life sumtyms seems soo meaningless....

sumtym tuu tink having a stead doesnt mean anitin...as long as..ii cld stay happie...

iif onli ii cld...nv grow up...n stay where ii m in sec1...tt will be gud...

nw...skoolin tuu miie..doesnt mean alot tuu...

ii hate skoolin..as well as myee life...

ii m wondering haf ^you^ ever care fer miie...^you^ sae ^you^ did care...

but action ish beta thn aniitiin..ii jus dun get it...

dun get...wat da guys r tinkin...

end here...

-attetion-seeker-

2006-04-04T23:14:00.000-07:00

haas...

todae..struggle gg skool ..in da mornin...

siianx..larrr...

reaill wana bee a drop out lorr...thn keep saein last yr ..last yr liiao..

ii mean..ii aso noe ..but...y cannt ppl understand hw ii feel...

ii m jus nt da material on study....

wat da f*ck norhx....

siianx larrr...

todae...half-way in skooll...

ask laoma cum pick miie up..haas...

escape fm tt fucker lesson[[eoa]]....

yeah!! ....happie....

but kinda of sad larr...

didnt do my [[cpa]] coursework todae....

tink after all no 1s reail care hw ii reaill feel abt everytin...

ii m a person hu acts tough on da outside...n the real miie..

ish da most fragile side....yupp..

nw ii wan most ish attention..

jus wana be a attention seeker for da tymm being...

didnt wana tink of anitin nw...nt on study..for a while....

ii niitt a break nw..a long-tymm 1....heex....

bleahx...

yupp..

-attention seeker-

2006-04-03T23:02:00.000-07:00

haas...todae..surprise
actually went skool..haas....
heex...
ermx...todae..ish myee form teacher burthdae worx..
funnie siax...haas...
yupp...than after skool todae....
mii , alice n sarah...went to play bowling...
yupp...haas..than todae..
plaY the 1st game..ii strike almost every turn....
thn second game..start to get lousy..haas....
yupp..funnie siax..
thn saw...
yangx,,n his fewns..haas...
ya..tink ii stoop here..

2006-04-02T15:19:00.000-07:00

haas...
berii loong nber blog liiao....
yupp..
jus came back...fm compasspoint wid
my mum n aunt..nt long ago...
cus go but mr gooh birthdae present ma..yuppp
siianx...
yupp..jus nw eat pizza hut for lunch...YEAH...tasty...
haas....
thn..todae..mii nber gooo church worx....
cus mii lau siax..yupp...
sway arhx....duno eat wat..lau..5ttimes norhx..siianx
haas...yupp...
nxt week gonna but tamgotchii...haas...
....
seriously speaking....
actually myee actual feelins nw...
ish berii sad....
ii m jus trying to cover up..hopin sum1 wld notice miii....
reaill seriously...ii didnt haf the mood to doo anitin nw....
ii wana keep myeeself busy to forgett da pain.....
wat can ii dooo nw....
jus feel lyk quitin sch...knowin tt ii wld fail...
my n level...wat for giving a try....
is gonna hurt mii even more....
nw....wat shld ii do...
ii flunk...1 of myyee n level sub[[eoa pratical]]...
but..da teahcer is FUCKING UNREASSONABLE lorrr....
didnt let mii haf myee retest..ii gt MC lorrr....
chee bye lehhh....
haiix....
ii wan sum1 to discover, to notice mii....
ii wan attention nw...nt trying to seek attention...
but...all ii wan ish more care n corncern....tts all ii wan....
ii hate da feelin of being nelgect.....
ii wan attention...
hu ish willing to gif mii all da attention ii wan...
stooooop here....

[[poOh&eeyore]]
-attention seeker-

2006-03-22T23:11:00.000-08:00

siianx..todae...
go back skool le....
haas....todae..check hair siax...
heng arhx!...nber kena caught...hair long liaox..nber tie...
dame sway siax...
todae..in skool...sprain myee leg...
nw swoollen le...
thn after skool..go buy food...than nv walk properly...
ii sprain agn...
worst of alll...
on the same leg..siianx...larrr...
haiiz...
tink stooop here....
*miissin hiim*

2006-03-21T10:36:00.000-08:00

siianx...todae..nber goo sch ..yupp..

siianx...dun ffeell lyk gg tish week worx...

ii hate sch...

exspeacilly...ever since in this freaking sch....

so mani weridos....crazy ppl...

hard to get along,hard to understand n werid character....siianx....

yupp....haiix...

ppl do make mistakes...n ii alwaes 4gif....but ii tried to 4get..but...

iit seems hard to...haiz...iif ii could do sumtin abt myee life nw...

ii wish ii m a toddler...wouldnt haf to care for anitin...

jus need to slp,play n eat....

feel lyk quitin sch....

ii noe if ii quit...fwens ard mii...

will ask mii nt tooo....but..but...

ii need a break...a long break....

to tink reail hard wat ii reaill want....

siannx.....

ii miiss *him* .....badly....

tinkin abt mannii stuff todaae...

still kinda feel bad..for hu ii haf hurt...

if only ii cld turn the clock back...

ii wld haf nv hurt them...

jus tink they r stoopid...ii hurt them le...

yet they still wait n be deeree foor mii whnever ii need a listenin ear or

shoulder to lean on.....

haiz....

---miiss yoou sooo much---

[[though...we r far apart...

though...we didnt get to see each other often....

but...in myee heart...i still miisses yoou alot....]]

2006-03-20T21:53:00.000-08:00

siianx....

myee com still hafnt okie yet...

siianx man...

we seems to bee diftin apart....

whyee ish tish happenin to us......

haix.....ii feel soo loner....ever since..we kinda of dift apart....

haiz...

berii long...

nvber blog le worx....

ssiianx...

jus sch reopen...siianx...man...

todae..actually mus go sch de...

but ii nv goo...dun wana go...

sick of the freakin sch....

ish jus nt a sch ii cld study in.....

the teachers there are understandin....

but the science teacher...

haiz...are all science teacher the same...

soo unreasonable....they sAE or tok...

nv go thru their brains....alwaes hurt ppl de....

siianx..larrr...

last fridae.....soo fun....

mii, poi lee, alice, charles, yi xue, hao yun.....

yyuppp...we go town watch movie...

actually ish watch [[nanny mphere]] de..or [[shoe fairy]] or

[[yours,mine,ours]]....

but than the guys...wana watch [[big mama 2]]...

than we watch norhx...

than mii n poi lee go take neo...

sooo nice siax...

tink stooop here larrrr...

sianx....

2006-03-15T21:30:00.000-08:00

siianx....

jus came back nt long ago....

yesterdae wana cum back hm bloggin de...

but...yesterdae...myee younger coursin..come myee grand ma hz...

soo noo choice...stay there a nite lorrr...yupp...

than tish mornin peii..my grand ma..

go .. TAN TOCK SENG HOSPITAl....

see doctor...yupp...

wait soo long lorrr...yupp...

siianx man....

tish few daes...didnt reaill enjoy myself siax..haiz...

sianx....

ermx..

tink ii stoop here ba...

2006-03-13T23:02:00.000-08:00

sianx...

myee com..nw cant go internet siax..sianx...

mus use myee ah e de laptop..thn can go internet...

berii nt use to it ...worx...

sianx..larr...

todae...ish the startin of the 1week sch holidae...

yupp...than todae..went out wif alice...to heartland...

at there we saw..gladys n lindy...

than..we went to plAy bowlinx...

siianx.... didnt bowl well todae...

haiz.... still feelin kinda of troubled ba...

siianx..larrr...

haiz....

dunno wat ii haf done wrong...

too haf suffer soo much...

haiz...

last saturdae...

went to poii lee chalet...

wit gladys, lindy, hock heng n matthew...

yupp...siianz worx...

thn mii n gladys n lindy n poii lee..go play *escape*

shoo fun siax..yupp...plus we go cyclin...

than poii lee zaii wo..yupp..

fun siax...

haiz..

stooop here ba...

2006-03-08T22:41:00.000-08:00

siianx...

yesterdae nber blog siax...

too..lazy liiao ba...

haiz....

tinkk tt geok yong...

gonna harm mii agnn...

wana harm mii to get trouble wif shirlene..oh man...

ii will nt lett her haf a chance man....

hiaz..tish few daes..jus too much tings is going on...

jus duno where to start....

todae...

mii, poi lee, alice, gladys, lindy....

we went to compass point...

yupp...siianx...larr...

ii dunnoe wat too sae siax...

haiz....

tink ii end here ba....

2006-03-06T23:00:00.000-08:00

siianx..todae...goo skooll...
but...ard 8am++...my marmie n no.5 uncle
cum fetch mii fm skooll...
haiiz..too streess liiao..todae break dwn le...
haiiz...
ii jus feel lyk slashin my wrist agn...
siianx..larr...
ii trust the wrong ger fren...
hw cld she...haix..backstab mii agn..and agn...
when..ii trusted her sooo much...
ii m soo sad....
haiiz...ii m ntt purfect....
haiz....
jus a normal ger...
haiz...
mii n *him seems to dift apart liiao...sad siax...
on either hand...*wang zi n matthew n aaron....
ii dunno larr...watz soo gud abt..mii...
y mus matthew n aaron treat mii soo well when ii hurt them soo badly...
b4....ii hate myeeself...
for being soo selfish...
to hAf hurt ..ppl..exspecially...
when the guys hu love mii...
haiz...
-troublered soul-

2006-03-02T23:42:00.000-08:00

siianx..bloggin time agn...
haiz....todae..ish reaill a sad dae...
nv felt soo sad ba...
mayb..last yr ba...
nw..there r rumors saein ii nt a virgin...
heard tt..nw...spread till..
sarah's class n Joy class...
haiz....
than..actually..nt berii sad..over tish rumors de...
than..when walking out to the sch gate wif alice n galdys...
than ii heard a ger sae mii...
sae ii gt a look of a prosituite...than cant stand it...
than myee tears roll down le...
haiz..
iicant take it annimore...
ii gonna heal gladys advice..to..
appeal to the principal...tt...
ii will kinda of quit sch...than onli for n level exam than ii go back
sch take the exam...yupp...
haiz....
yupp..ii dunoe wat ii m tinkin nw..ii feel stress..
tell mii wat ii shld do...
dun try to ask mii to calm dwn..ii cant annimore...
ii m slowly breakin dwn le...
all ii noe...ii m jus a bitch...
haiz....
wat had ii done wrong....
sobx..cant help cryin nw....
ii hate myself...
no1 cares abt mii....
nope..no1 jus tink b4 they sae...
ii haf enough of the humilation..rumore...provokion...le....
haiz....
nw..jus hurt another guy le...
wat had ii done..
ii m soo useless...
keep hurtin the guys hu love mii soo much...
ii shld beta off..to die...
haiz..todae...
after sch..
mii, alice n galdys go play bowlin...
than meet up wif maathew n yikai...
haiz...yupp..thsn we went to pick red dates together...haiz...
ii hate myeeslf....
wat haf ii done wrong...

2006-03-01T23:11:00.000-08:00

todae....
kinda of my DOOM DAE...
haiz..liying ish back leee...
sianx....
duno larr...
todae..marmie cum skool pick mii up...
than tell mii...if ii reaill cannt....
than she either go see principal abt it or even...
call father quack abt it....
hiaz...thn..ii duno larrr....
ii dun wish to stand up agn...
ii feel vv hurt...
fm last yr ii tot..if i change sch there will b no pro..but...
ii still suffer ..no1 noes wat i m gg thru....
ppl used to sae...
pick up fm where u fall..
but ii fall bad tis tym...
haiz..
stoop here....

2006-02-28T23:22:00.000-08:00

siianx....

todae..finally went back skool...

but stil..didnt haf the courage to stand back agn...

ish nt easy being mii....

a person hu haf manii past ish nt easy to be...

where haf my smile gone...

will it ever return to mii...

ii mm too sad n stress too tok abt aniitin right nw...

ii mus take a break..b4..

i cut myself or watevr lorrr..

ii cant stand it...

ppl ard mii..ask mii to ren..but...

ii m a human lorrr...

ii mean...every1 onli can ren till 1 limit...

ii m over my limit le...yet ii still haf to ren....

y cant anii1...understand mii...

i noe n level ish cumin soon...hw abt mii....

tink gonna break dwn b4 n level start....

haiz....

ii dun wana start hurtin myeeself agn...

ii dun wana go back to skool agn..[[being force to]]

no1 care abt myee feelins...all ppl care ish my studies...haiz...

ii cant stand it annimore...worst of all..

myee teacher didnt even bother to do aniitin...

even when i express to him..abt hw ii feel...

wah lao...

hiaz...

stoop here....

-fade away-

2006-02-26T21:11:00.000-08:00

siianx...

todae..after church nber go out...

haiz...fm yesterdae..nitex till nw..

didnt hear *his voice..miss him worx...

haiz....

i m breakin down le....

ii cant take it annimore...

ii noe ish nt worth it...

but....ii reail wana change..ish jus tt no1

wana gif mii a chance

haiz....

nw...ii m jus living lyk a flower...sooner or later...

i will jus withered away....

siianx...

ii reail duno wat to do le....

ii m stress up...

my marmie..advise mii go see..

myee counsellor agn...

but..but...haiz....

nw nobody noes wat ii m going through...

everybody...tot ii m berii happie..even though ii gt back *him...

but...ii feel reaiill hurt...nt by *him larrr...

hiaz....

ii m jus a useless bum...

a stoopid ger...

a ger tt has try hard to change...

a ger tt every1..alwaes call *lock quay*

ii feel hurt...y mus yoou hurt mii in tish way...

mayb...ii should jus die...feelin lonely agn...

history goonna repeat agn....

sad....

*wat i nitt most is u,right by my side..

promise mii..yoou will nv gonna leave mii..*

2006-02-24T23:08:00.000-08:00

siianx..todae...
didnt goo skooll...
mii pon skool todae...
siianx larr...
todae...mii pon skool...cus under stress le....
haiz...can sae ish due to tt..freakin ger ba....
haiiz..
todae..early...mornin
go darlinx hz....than do project..siianx...
yupp...
siianx...
rascal...shoo freakin cute lorr...
can hug him to slp siax...
end...here

2006-02-22T22:45:00.000-08:00

siianx..

manii daes nber blog liiao...haix....

mii n tyron are finnally back.. agn..

yeah....

siianx...

mii two daes nv go skool le..on mc...yupp...

haiz ya...

still wonderin shld ii trust tyron agn...

ii noe stead mus trust each other de...

but...

aiya...

nw ii still love to haf him ard..probably ish jus the hurt he left mii wif..

ii cldnt 4get...

btw..ii goona..create a new blog soon...

yupp...

haiz...todae..poi lee ..they all sae...

*li ying*...gonna come back skool le..scare siax...

haiiz...dunno larr...

tink ii stoop here ba...

-E nightmare returns-

2006-02-15T09:06:00.000-08:00

jus woke up...

tinkin of him agn...

knn hurt agn..yesterdae...

but..if ish cus of tyron...ish worth it....

haiiz..yesterdae...

tyron left mii...but...at ard...mid-night....

we patch le....

ii heart-ache le....

ii realixe....ii live without him....

iit was all my fault....if ii dint share him wif gladys...

or wat...iit was all my fault....

ii hate myself....

iit waas all my fault....

ii don wana lose hiim annimore...

iit reail hurt mii agn...

ii hate myself aagn...

haf ii done sumtin wrong ...

haiiz...iit was all my fault...if ii were to noe..

tt u dun lyk gers hu cut themselves...

ii wld nt cut le...

hope u will gif mii a chance....

ii m sorry to upsad yoou...

*if ish mii tt cus , everytin i wld disappear fm every1*

-my heart stoop yesterdae nitex..but nw it came alive agn-

2006-02-14T22:48:00.000-08:00

wah..shoo manii daes nber blog lliiao...

haas....

should ii b laughin nw...

haiz...

ii m still chao ji upsad....i cant 4get the pain....

onli when ii gorge dwn myself wif food...

than ii will 4get the paiin....

but ..still...haiz...

mayb wat kor jerold sae ish right ba...

ii brought all tish all unto myself....

but...

ii cannt let my fren jus bee sad....

ii rather ii m the 1 hu suffer in silence....

todae..ish VALENTIME DAE ...yupp...

than todae...

actually intend..gooo play bowlin..

haiiz...but...too bad cant play..cus

gt 1 skool book the whole place le...siianx....

than instead we went to eat pizza hut..yupp...

wif... alice, sarah, galdys, lindy, lindy's stead jason, jerold kor, darlinx...

haiiz...siianx..after finishin eatin...

we went to myee *mi mi di fang* ....yupp..

the place ii use to goo whenever ii get sad...

ii tot ii will nv nitt to goo there...when ii m sad...

but..nw ish different....

manii sae ii m stoopid....

but...i hate to see my best fren to dwn....

i dun haf the heart tooo...n cant possibly ask mii gif darlinx..tooo

galdys....ii m hurtx....

at ard....

6.30pm ...start takin our bag..n gonna go hm le...

haiiiz....than start walkin back to heartland...

jus tot ii wana buy sumtin...

ii went too buy pen-knife....tink ii guess...

alice noe wat ii reail did wit it.....

ii was tinkin....

if ii should jus

*bleed to death* ....mayb iit wld bee better for every1.....

ii wunt cus any1 saddness.....annimore....

ii hate myeeself...it seems tt ii m nt myself annimore....

where haf the true mi gone....

y m ii shoo weak..ii should..fight for it...nt to share....wif sum1....

*ii m shoo lost....sum1 tell mii wat ii shld do...*

whyee mus it happen agn....

ii dun wana lose darlinx..jus lyk ii lose marcus...

iit hurtx....

ii hate myee self....

*ii rather nt celebrate V-Dae.....

iit cus mii shoo much tearx....n heart piercin......

whyyee..didnt nobody...ask mii hw ii reaiil felt abt the whole thing....

yet..ppl onli noe hw to sae ii stoopid..ya..ii m stoopid...

but....ii cant jus lyk myee fren suffer..can ii...

mayb..ii m jus tooo soft-hearted....

stopp here ba....

*a incomplete heart ish equal to a incomplete lovee*

*true love exsit,but it will alwaes be destroy*

*myee heart ish being, destroy&pierce&step-on&kick ard....*

THE REALITY

you made mii fall in loove wif yooou,

yoou made mii haf a crush on yoou,

yooou made mii bulid a castle in the air,

you act as it yoou care,

but nw i haf reailse the reality...

yoou haf open up my love visibillity...

you proven myee love that ii had b4 was blind....

and show mii loce cant alwaes bee kind...

you haf taken away all the colors in myee sky...

jus by maKIN a decision without tinkin twice..

i wanted to cry out agn...

but i reailse that i would haf nth to gain.....

CRIMSON TEARS

every drop of myee crimson tears,

reavels a part of your face,

carefully collectedit and piece up all the tears,

so tat it can form up into ur crystal clear face,

so tt i can bee reminded of hw u look like,

and so tt when ii miiss yoou,ii can look at ur crystal face...

ii understand hw ur life was lyk...

as i can see it at ur crystal face.....

but please dun bee part of myee dreams,

as ii noe dreams cant alwaes bee in reality,

ii nv wana wake up fm myee dreams...

as ii realisewhen myee dreams lyk u

wdn't be in reality....

-fading away..jus lyk a flower-

2006-02-12T20:22:00.000-08:00

siianx...
last few daes...
darlinx...peeii mii..yupp..
siianx..larr...
todae...jus cried...
over two guys....
f*ck man....
omg..wat haf ii done...
to actually hurt two guys...
ii m jus cold - blooded....
inhuman...cruel.....
siianx ..larrr....
i jus a inhuman freako....
siianx....
todae...
knn scold by...
darlinx fren de stead...
call dunno wat sheila....
i tink SHIT LA....ar...
*chee bye*....tink she hu....
jus scold mii...happily...
ii m nt gonna let her off...easily...
wahahahahahaha.....
n cheat other ppl money....
worst tish kind of ger ish..worst of alll...
ii m gonna get her...
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
fuck...jus knn scold by laoma...
cheebye leh....
ii wana eat maggie mee..she aso wana sae...
don eat she aso sae...
she better die earlier man...
i hate her...
tink ii change cus of here...
oh cum on....
ii change...cus of ii wana bbee a gud ger....
hate hate her her....
go n die larrr....
stooop here....

2006-02-09T22:52:00.000-08:00

todae...

soo fun worx...

nv study...cus gt skool mission ma..yupp..

fun siax... YEAH! ....

yupp..than after skooll...

mii , lindy , galdys ..goo meett..

up wif darliinx , jerold n joey...

yupp..kinda of fun larr..

than halfway..joey went back hm ..yupp..

due to parents ask him go hm...[[wah..shoo guai]]

yupp..haass...than.. mii , gladys , lindy , darliinx n jerold...

when to take the neoprint...yupp...

YES ! YES ! ...we finally take neo liiao...

yupp..

yeahx....

than..after tt...we goo play bowlin..shoo fun siax...

ii win darliinx..hahahahhahaha..heeex...

*evil*

stoopp here...

2006-02-08T18:26:00.000-08:00

siianx...
arhz...
todae...nber goo skool worx...
cus too tired too gooo liiaox..yupp..
than todae nber gooo out..heex..
mii sooo guai siax...
haas...mii shoo thick-skin worx...
sae myself guai...heex...
haas...
jus nw...poh lee called mii than tell mii..
ms shahihka[[my sciennce teacher]]..
told the whole class ..she saw mii..
yesterdae...
wah lao...saw than saw larrr...
saw tell other the whole class meh...
i meaN cant she keep it to herself...
than nber mind lorr...
still tell the others wat ii wear..
ii alwaes tot tt...she ish different fm the other teacher...
freak larr...ish jus lyk in PL....
*chee bye* .... *fucker* ...lorrr...
[[pissed off]] ....

2006-02-07T20:18:00.000-08:00

wah..todae..shoo happie man..

todae...

after skooll..darlinx...

wait for mii outside skooll ...

YEAH ! YEAH! ...haass...

than after tt...

mii n gladys n darlinx..

went to hougang mrt station to take a mrt to

plaza singapura...yupp..

than..actually plan to go and take neo de..

but no tym..

than go make ring norhx...

wah shoo ex lorrr...

haiiz...feel kinda of bad..spent..darlinx money lehh...

siianx...

than lindy came liiao...

than..we go BURGER KING...eat together...

but liindy giifme attuide worx...

than..mii and liindy gt cold war...yupp..

than awhile lata we ok liiao..she sae soorriew le...

haiiz dunno larrrr...

yupp...at BURGER KING...mii n darlin share...

2boxes of chicken cheese sticks & a drink...

while galdys n liindy brought..2 drinks, a burger wif fries and a onion ring...

yupp..after eating..than we go make ring...

than tmr darlin...than go...collect..yupp...

*lurveeu* ....heexx....

than...after everytin le...

gladys, lindy , darlinx...

peii mii go poi lee hz...

than..darlinx pay cab fare...

yupp...

tink stoop here todae...

2006-02-06T22:47:00.000-08:00

siianx...

todae...

back..at mui com liiao...didnt get a chance to blog...

last few daes..due too kept gg too view *shawn's blog* & *joshua's blog*

tink todae mus blog..wat i did the last few daes liiao...

last fridae...goo poh lee house..wif

sarah, alice, gladys, kelly, lindy...

yupp..than we goo poh lee hz dere.. so called "gamble" ...

yupp...than after tt...meet up wit darlinx...

than..darlinx...came grandma hz ^bai nian^...yupp..

than the following dae..met up wif darlinx...

toking abt todae...

after skooll...

go to bugis wif...

poh lee, galdys, alice, yanhui, yanhui' mum, lindy, sarah....

yupp...goo watch iinortstoopid2...actuallymii watch liiao...

but mii long ago..promise them mus peii them watch le..shoo mus keep my promise...

yupp..than..b4 watchin..b4 alice & sarah came...

mii..poh lee...yan hui...galdys...lindy..went to take neo.haass..

kinda of happie todae...

oh ya..

mus thankx...darlinx help mii...

buy movie ticket...heexx...

jus nw came back hm...

sit at the corner of my bed there cry...

cus of family pro...

m ii reaiill in wrong...

haf ii reaill snatch awaay all of marius love & care ....

ii feel shoo guilty..hurtin a small kid...

a small kid tt ii love & dote very much....

should ii reaill listen too my mum..

advise....

siianx..larrr...

nw shoo stress...cus of *n* level..course work...

ii jus reailze..hw much ii haf cus hurt..to the ppl..

ard mii..hu love & dote mii..once...till nw...

even ii hurt them...

ii feel shoo bad abt itt...

even though ii dun care shoo much..as ii careon the outside...

ii m such a failure...

ii feel lyk a burden....

to everyone....

stoopp here...

dead&frozen....

since....120505....

2006-02-02T20:49:00.000-08:00

sianx...

jus wake up...jus nw take medince than goo slpx...

yupp...

YEAH! ... *he* finally cum back liiao ..wunt feel bored aniimore...

YES! .....shoo happie...

todae..goo skool liiao...

todae..do finish my CPA course work...

yupp...but ii tink ii gonna fail ba...todae than noe...

tish course work tish for 'N' level de worx...

[blur queen] worx....siianx....

die larr...scare ii faiil man...

haiix yoo....

hw lehh...aiya..nw aso cant do aniitiin tink liiao...

tink for my nxt assignment ish EOA course work

ba...mus work harder on tish...

sianx...

than after skool todae...

mii goo miitt mui marmie..at compass point..

yupp..than alice , sarah, poh lee... peii mii goo..

yupp...than...

after...reach compass mac liiao..mii goo miitt mui marmie..

than alice, sarah and poh lee goo walk walk ii tink...

tmr...gg poh lee hz baii nian worx...

yupp..

siianx...mus gooo work sn...

gonna broke le..

stooop here....

2006-02-01T20:57:00.000-08:00

siianx...
todae nber goo skooll..
yuppp...cus sick ma...
than..tish mornin... my marmie bring mii goo see doctor...
nw..feelin quite ok larrr...
than..jus nw...ard...
2pm+...
galdys, lindy, sarah, poh lee, alice...
came mui hz eat steam boat...
n actually..kelly..aso ggt cum de...
than..ish cus of a misunderstand...
than she kinda of angry wid mii...
yuppp...
siianx..larr...
ii m too tired tooo doo aniitiin le...
*if a frenship, doesnt haf trust...or wat...
than...ish tish call a true fren...
a true fren..knows u in n out...*
tts it...
but..after manii things..i realize...
poh lee&gladys&lindy..r the 1..hu..
when ii niited them most..
they r jus right there by my side...
yuppp...
siianx...
stoopp here...ba...

2006-01-31T07:06:00.000-08:00

siianz...
after...sianx....
siick liiao..jus cus yesterdae...
goo watch mid-night movie..than
nw my sickness ish worst...
siianx...
nw noo doctor liiao...
mus gooo...see another doctor tmr le...
siianx....
stooop here....

2006-01-30T17:53:00.000-08:00

jus came back..nt long ago...
todae...
get onli afew hongbaos..
tish...yr..hongbao..the money..gettin lesser le..
econmic...soo poor....
haiiz..siianz...
todae...
when too saint michael..there..visit...
mui...grand father...
yupp...
than..after..tt..
mii goo relative hz..bai nian...
than...goo back..grand ma hz..rest le..
than ard...
3pm+... we go to puggol there...
eat the seafood..yum yum...shoo nice...haas...
yupp..
than..tonight..mui coursins...
stayin over...
siianx larrr...see..mui male coursin face..
nah...mayb..lata goin to watch movie..heex...
tink stoop here ba..

2006-01-30T04:56:00.000-08:00

YEAHx.....
shooo happie....
jus came back...fm watchin *ii nort stooopid twooo* ...wif mui mum,
aunty, coursin n coursin's mum....
yeah..lol...shoo freakin funnie lorrr...
next next week gonna watch agn..wif my frens..as ii promise them earlier le ..yupp...
haaaaaasss....shooo funnie....
wahhaaaa....cantt stop laughin..yupp...
MUST watch....worth money....
heex...
anniiwaes..mines ish online bookin de...
mii go tampines mall watch ..yupp...
shoo fun...nber watch b4 mid-night movies..
1st tym worx...haass...
tink stooop here....mus gooo slp le....
nitex...

2006-01-28T16:58:00.000-08:00

siianx..jus came back hm...
todae ish eat tuan yuan fan worx....
shoo happie..lata goin grand ma hz eat....
miiss *him* worx....
mayb tts heaven givin uss a test..whether are we meant for each other...
but ii tiink soo ba...i caho miiss *him* le...
cant stand *hiim* leavin mii....
ii wiill nber make the same mistake by..
lettiin the guy i lurve most..leave mii...

if ii were to turn the clock back..
i promise...reail..promise...
i will hold ^yoou^ back..n try to be more carin...
or even more understandin...
mayb..i reaill did..nt cherish ^you^ well..
as the results i lose ^yoou^ in the end..but...
at least...ii noe..once..iin mui life..mii n ^yoou^ ..
haf share the special moments...together...
ish enough..but iff reaill i cold do anniitin to get ^yoou^ back..
i would....
even to cry a ocean of tears..or even to die...
im more than willin..to get ^you^ back...
stoop here....

2006-01-26T23:08:00.000-08:00

siianx..

todae...

goo skool le...

yesterdae..sick..nber gooo...

actually..todae...aso noo niit go de..cus doctor gifmii two daes mc..but..cannt larr...

todae...gt math test & cpa course work ..shoo bo biian lorrr...

yupp...siianx...than...todae...in skool...

nearly fainted...thank god..gt my buddies..ard..

or elsa dunoe wat will happen to mii le...

than kana send to sickbay..yupp..

todae..after skool..

mii, sarah, alice, meii zhen, gladys, lindy go..

return the magazine..yupp..

siianx..than get pay..but still nt enough money...

siianx....

broke agn...

lost my flyer job..sad siiax...

sobx...

tink stoop here...

*never stoooop miisssiin yooou*

2006-01-24T20:37:00.000-08:00

sianx..
todae..cum back hm early worx..cus mii uncle sent mii back...
yupp...dame tired worx..todae go take neo agn...
wif sarah , alice n gladys....
yesterdae aso go take..
tink sooner or later will go broke 1st...
fridae..gonna take neo agn..
tink mii n sarah became the neo siaox le...
haas...
sianx...
CPA course work startin tmr..dame scare
...wat if i fail..than die le...
shoo stressful nw..duno
should i go ite after sec4..or...
should i pursue my dreams...
if i were to...go ite..than i cant pursue or further my dreams le...
siianx...
siianx...wan sumone to care for mii....
sianx....
stoooop here...

2006-01-23T23:23:00.000-08:00

todae...
sianx..man..tot after skool can goo work...
but end up nv work..go take neo print..
sianx..arhx...
sad man..
tot..
mii, galdys,l indy, sarah, alice, meii zhen n hock heng...
can go gif tt stoopid flyer together..
turns out to be cannt work liiao...
sianx...gonna broke soon...
tink go for my department store promoter interview..
better larrr....haiz...nw sumtym go work..soo dame tired siax...
yupp...dame tired larrr...
sianx..wonderin y holy innocent...
y gt soo much frendship pro...
tink sum ppl in tt skool lack of care & lurve siax...
haas...
yupp..
shall stoop here...

2006-01-22T19:28:00.000-08:00

shoo long..nber blog liiao...

yupp..

shoo tired man...

todae...

when out to tampines ..my uncle news paper stand...

help put..yupp...than saw..baobeii there...

yupp...

than..shoo siianxz todAE...siax...

tired..man...

still mus go work tmr...

sianx..argh....

gonna broke soon...

end here...

2006-01-18T23:00:00.000-08:00

shoo long nber blog liiao...
heex...
yupp..
todae..nearly..bash sum1 in CLASS worx...
haas...
tink nt long lata i gonna box sum 1 le..yupp...
than todae...
mii,alice,sarah n poh lee go bugis..take neo print...
than todae my marmie off worx..yupp..
than todae henry find trouble wif poh lee...
wat a ungentle man...
sianx...
tink stoop here..
tired..

2006-01-12T22:33:00.000-08:00

wah..sianx...
todae..go school siaxxx....
haass...
todae..after skool...
goo library....yupp..
than shoo surprise..todae..sarah...tok too mii siax....
shoo happie....
we r finally back together agn.. YES! ...
hope history will nv repeat agn....
haas...jus enjoy todae sooo much..
hope it cld last 4va....
yupp...
haass..than after skool...todae....
went to eat..wif alice , sarah , poi lee ...yupp
go food court ..eat..haas....
shoo fun...
heex....
tink i shall stoop here....
[[lovin yooou till the last breath & till mui heart beat stooop]]

2006-01-10T20:32:00.000-08:00

wah...todae..public holidae..siax..
haas... YEAH! ... no need goo skool ..haass..
todae whole dae..went out
wif mui mom n aunty...go town...shoppin siax...
haas...than mii todae buy alot of clothes worx.. YEAH! ...
yupp...than tish mornin..wana put on contact lens...but cannt goo in..shooo sad...
cus mii de eyes tooo small liao...but my aunty suggest...
mii go mii a style low spec...
actually gt 1 in mind liao...
haass...yupp....
sianx man..tmr gg skool le...
haas....
yupp..
tink shall stoop here ba...

2006-01-04T22:14:00.000-08:00

haass...
tym tooo blog agn..heexx...
nth doo worx...
yesterdae..mr singh ask everybody to bring the books accordin to tym table...
in the end..nv study..wah laoo....
mii shoulder pain siax..haass....
yuppp...than..todae..after skool
mii, gladys, poh lee, meii zhen...stay back after skooll..
do the class decor...sianx siax..haass....
do liiao..but beri satified..haass....jus hope tt...
tmr goo skooolll mui class the guys..
the hand wunt itchy itchy...
go make spoil...wah lao..if they make spoil..
tink will cry man...
fm afternoon do till evenin lyk tt...
than if go mAke spoil...than they can spoil le....
haasss....
tink i shall stoop here liiao....

2006-01-03T22:40:00.000-08:00

YEAH!...

todae..start skool le..yupp...

shoo happie siax..can goo skool le....

haass....

shoo...happie...

haass....

heex....

tink i gg siaox liao...

sianx man...

dame stress up siax...

y mus god create relationship sia..

make mii shoo stress...

sianx...dunno wat too do larr..

jus wana concentrate mui studies..tts the most important de..

than abt relationship tish kind of ting jus....

put it aside 1st ba...

sianx....

tink shall stooop here...

-troubled sOuL-

2006-01-02T22:23:00.000-08:00

haas...
jus came back fm mii bakin class todae worx...
shoo tired...haas....
tmr gt skool le... YEAH!....waitin for tmr soo long le...
todae...went to super cut...go cut mii...
dame short worx..but..nvm larrs...
will grow long de....haas...
wah...
shooo happie....on the 31 DEC 05....
heex...
mii n poh lee....gladys n lindy..nber go count dwn....
but help moi babie coursin...therese...
haas...shoo fun..sia...
heex....
haass...
tink gg siaox liaox....
mii already tot tish beri long le....
tish..yr sec4....
mii reaill wana study hard....
hope to aim for sec5.....
cus i don wana go to ite.....
yuppp...tink i shall stoooop here....
hhaass...

2005-12-30T15:13:00.000-08:00

wah..nw shoo bloody sianx worx..
w in library..sianx...usin com..
than jus nw..went to compass wif poh lee n gladys..
we go buy skool bag...hee..n a water bottle...heex...
than..mii yesterdae..4got to blog...soo sad...
sianx....
haas....anniwaes....
yesterdae..mii..poh lee...yi xue..hao yun...charles went..
to catch the movie...NARNIA....
heex..a nice show larrs..
yupp..n we haf fun too...haass.....
yupp...
shooo tink tts abt all..gtg...
nw....blog lata

2005-12-28T21:44:00.000-08:00

yoz...
time!! to blog.....heex....
sianx....skool reopenin soon....
humpf....hate tt stoopid henry pang....
scold miii bitch...still wana ask mii for help...
wan mii for help...i CONFIRM will help de....
i will make himm repay back the tears...he make mii drop....
he tinks he ish shoooo F***in....nice...
oh come on lorrs...he is jus a UPS[useless piece of shit] ....
humfp....si fat pig.....tink he ish shoo perfect sia....
jus a stoopid bugs bunny teeth...
lyk shit man...
tink shall stooop here...

2005-12-25T21:24:00.000-08:00

heexx... :) .... todae...ish christmas dae....
worx...nt reail beri fun larrs..todae...
went church agn...after church went to town wif moi mom..
n aunt...yupp....goo see new clothes yupp...haass...
gonna buy new clothes soon..YEAh.....soo happie....
but....duno y ...all of a sudden..feelin kinda of dwn...
n jus hate the feelin of being alone...mayb jus nt use to it ba...
jus as i was lyin on bed...
i was reail tinkin...

ish life reail tt miserable....tt ppl choose death....
or isit too tiring to even live on....
life reails sucks isit...
wat does guys cheat on their gurl...
or even why...mus they haf flirts ard in tis world...

hu cld answer all moii stuff...
sianx ..larrs...hiaz...
are kor n meiis all fake..im jus stoopid enough..to still be belivin...
in kors n meiis still ba...
sianx larrs......
than nw waatchin the princess daries show...
sooo touchin siaz..haas...
haas...
tink i shall end here..for todae...

2005-12-24T13:13:00.000-08:00

wah..mii shoo long...
nber blog liaox worx...
stoopid com..lag man...
cant use le....than nw mus use mui aunt the laPtop...sianx arhx...
heex....
shoo happie...
on thurdae....guess hu i saw...
heex...heex...
mii saw *franics* leh...aiya...
wah..he shoo shuai man....
soo shock....his dressing is actualy far better than yixue...
haas....
heex...
sianx..arhx..christmas eve...nth do worx...
at 12 midnight..gg to mui grand ma church..yupp...
haas....
heess....
mii siaox liao...
keep laughin....
but i tink....
sumtin...reail gd happens to mii....
haas..tot tt it will nv happens....
but guess wat...
haass.....
tink i shall end here....

2005-12-01T23:44:00.000-08:00

todae..ish angeline birthdae...worx..

mui wu nuer birthdae..yupp..

shoo..happy...worx...

mii..n gladys....lindy..n lydia mei...

went to j8..tish mornin...to catch...

the movie.. *chicken little* ...

yupp...

soo nice loorrs...

haas...

but..todae..i m BROKE agn...

yupp...

than..todae...after we watch le..we went to plaza sing....

go find...yi xue..edmund....charles....yupp...

than still sae mii ps them....ish lyk they ps us norhz...haas...

than todae...saw..darryl lee...n jamie...

wah lao...dame dao..lorrs...didnt even borther to sae hi...

f*ck....majiam..i transparent de....

anniwaes nvm larrs...haas...beri fun todae...

we went to ps take neo prints...haasss....

sooo fun...

haasss....

yupp..

sianx...than after tt..wwe went back tooo....

hougang mall....to eat...

than...while eatin...matthew msg..mii...

saein..tt edmund...kinda of lyk mii....

yupp...

than..i was shocked....

oh mui goodness...

haix....

anniwaes...

todae...the dae was gd larrs...

2005-11-29T23:15:00.000-08:00

todae...
shoo bored...
todae...mii n gladys n lindy...n yong chun meet agn...
yuppp...
than..todae...
we go..to heartland...
there..the super bowl...
play..1game ..yupp..
than b4 tt..lindy..n gladys...yong chun..
pei..
mii go pay moi grand ma a visit...
at the all saints home there....
the poh huat road..yupp...
hey..at least i still gt...liang xin lorr...
still ill go pei a visit..
nt lyk ani other ish meomoary dae..than go de..yupp...
but..todae...nt sae beri fun lar...sianx...
haas...

2005-11-28T22:38:00.000-08:00

jus came back fm grand ma house...

todae...

shoooo fun sia...

yupp..

but sumtin qutie bad happen in the mornin todae...

while i saw crossin the road...n standin on the road divider...

a guy ridin a motor bike..call mii...n i tot it was mui fren...

but i turn turn to be...

oh moi goodness! ...ish a **ji ko pei**

yupp...the eyes..starin at mui there...plus worst of alll...

ish..do a mouth actio..majiam wana eat mii up lyk tt....

scare mii norhx...

but todae mii aso nber wear untill..lyk beri open ma....

sianx...okok...

than after tt....

i manage to get...a cab...n went mui mei's lydia house..yupp...

yupp...than todae...miii n lydia mei...we spray..blue hair spray...

quite nice lar...yuppp..

eh...

yupp...

than we went to heartland to take neoprints..yupp..

than..after tt we went to yoshinoya....eat...

tt tooopid drink tt cus mii $2.50...Yuck!...lyk shit man...

still sae is wat grape jelly soda...

end up..the jelly turns out to be **glass jelly** ...mui goodnesss..

yuppp...sianx..than after tt we went...

to hougang mall to meet yong chun..yupp..

than..after tt...we 3 went to.. **amk** ..heard lydia...sae...

go see FREE show...

but to mii ish lyk...i rather don watch tt show...

cus ish lyk gang fight...than see their *chao ah beng* fight...than lata....

knn caught...than die liao lorrs...

yupp..end up..when we reach there...

we saw...

mui di...kok tong...

than saw kit tee....nt bad lookin...larrs

than...matlida....n the *chao ah bengs*

n another p6 gur...yupp...

yupp..

tink after all dey are better..than nssya...

ye..

yupp...

tirin...[[yawn]]...

eh..than todae..we all go buy bubble tea..yupp..

sianx..after tt..ABT 3+..le...

mii n lydia ..n yong chun we went...

to hougang mall..to meet...

lindy n gladys..

yupp..

than after...i buy mui food fm

tha food court...e gurs went mui grand ma house yup....

sian larrs...

..yuupp..

shall end here...

2005-11-26T16:23:00.000-08:00

todae...
ish a bad dae...worx...jus gt bad...fm mui grand ma...hz...
but...nw i cum back hm..4 awhile onli...cus lata gg for mii
japanses class liao...sianx...
yupp..
than tish mornin..mui...
ah ma...n mii...
go market..than wana cum back laio...i bdrop ...the card holder...
inside contents...
ez-link card & nirc....than...
i todae...run the whole....
hougang mall..find tt stooopid maid...yupp..
sianx ar....
than nw leg shooo pain...
yuppp..but...heaven still gt eyes...
mii saw gladys n lindy ..than they aso help mii norx...
yuppp..
than jus nw go report...police station...
yuppp...
than mui grand ma...help mii...
cover up...infront of mui uncle...sae ish she drop it de...
but actually ish mii accidently drop it...than the theft gt..
chance go take n go de lorrsss..
mii grandma shoo gd worx...heheh...
yuppp..
sooo sianx....
nah...gtg..nw...
tink blog tmr ba....

2005-11-24T23:37:00.000-08:00

todae...
borin dae....
sianx man...
todae mii n gladys n lindy...
went to meet wei shu in the mornin...
than...afternoon...go....
meet...yong chun....
haas...his new spikey hair style...
quite nice larrs...yuppp..
sianx...larrrs...
todae....nth do worx....
sianx..man...sianx arhx...
tmr than blog agn ba....

2005-11-22T11:46:00.000-08:00

todae...
shooo...sianx..
didnt go out...1st..tym..nv go out lehh...
sianx...nw everydae..if nv go out....
at grand ma house...
will sleep...eat...
i m jus lyk a pig....
sumtyms....
i keep tinkin....
m i tt gd...y does sum guys ask mii b their stead...
m i tt gd...nope..i tink i m nt....
to mii...
as a stead...i did it very poorly...
so to ish being a fren.....
i feel..tt..ish reail nt easy..to please every1....
i dun get it at all...
i reail cherish..sarah dey all as mii bestiiess...
but....y isit..soo hard too please them...
all..i wan ish mui holy innocent fren...
n pl fren..to noe each other nia....y ish it soo diffult...
fm tish...i reailze...tt..there are mani ting in tish world...
is nt the way u would lyk it to end....or want....
but...i reail cherish...
sarah...as a jie/fren....
she n poh lee...
brought mii..joy...
when i 1st came...to holy innocent...
i tot ish great...
i found a cicrle of true..frens....
but tym passes....i saw each of every1..true colors...

lyk for geok yong...
i treat..as mii bestiiess too..
end up i get treated...to sumtin i haf nv expect....
wat i haf done wrong to her...tt she mus do tish stuff to mii...

no wonder...dere is a sayin tt goes...
"in life...there r mani tings...
is nt how we wanted..to haf...
or wanted to end the way..we want.. "

i m reeaill..depress...can anni1 help mii....
i m jus lokin for a trusted fren...
tt could b wif mii..whenever i feel dwn...
isit tt too much....
i jus don get it....
even for mui fren in pl...
wat m i to them nw....
ish sooo full of crap loors....
isit....findin a true fren..ish tt hard...
y cant ppl understand the other party enough...
b4 makin ani comments...
i don get it..reailll...
tink i gt nth to sae aniimore....

no1 has nv understand mii b4...

i mean truely understand miii....

nt even mii stead...

i m jus dead....

since...may14....

no1..has ever try to understand mii fully...

so do i moiself...

i dun even noe..watx gg on wif mui life annimore...

i m reaill feelin vexed...

over..mani stufff....

jus wana b dead....

4va..soo i woudnt need to kare...
for annitn annimore...

2005-11-19T21:18:00.000-08:00

finally...
came back hm liao...
last few daes..at grand ma house stay..shooo fun siax..
wif mii 2 younger coursins....
heex...
shoo happie ...
on 17 nov...
mii,lindy,gladys,pohlee,edmund,yixue,charles,jeremy...
we went to watch **harry potter**...at junction 8
sianx...
actually..matthew also gt go de...but..he sick..soo ke lian...
aiya...even dun haf him..gt poh lee can liao..yupp..
on the dae..we catch the harry potter show...
mii n poh lee...reeaiill..dame broke siax...
sianx...mii nw noe le...
go out better dun bring soo much money....
can die man...
lyk i spend almost all moi money away..sia...
sianx...
haha...
the show..quite nice lar....
actualy wana catch.. **chicken little**...
but the show hafnt cum out yet..sianx..but nvm lar...
**harry potter** aso nt bad..jus tt..we r been siitted...
at the front 3rd row...
our neck..mus strain up..yupp...
than shooo fun..
yupp..
actually..we reach there abt..12pm++...
than wanted catch the show at...2+ de...
but..all sold out...than too bad lorrr...
mus wait for the 3+ de..yupp..
soo sianx...
during tt period we the gers..went to take neo...
yupp..
fun sia..
than..we brought..a mini tortise..fm action city...sooo cute..man....
yupp..

2005-11-14T20:05:00.000-08:00

todae...
mii birthdae...worx..soo..happie...
til..xiao ger..send mii a msg...
scold..mii bitch agn...
yupp..soo wat..i m a bitch..don haf to scold mii durin mii birthdae rite....
wat the f*ck...
dame piss off lor...
4get it...
angry aso no use de...
aiya..mii 4va..always let ppl scold mii de..larrx...
wat ish tish man...
poh lee keep askin mii tell mr jamil...
tink tink...tell father beta sia....watever lar...tink best dun sae...
lata kana scoldin fm her...or
worst lata she sae mii chum sia...
*knn* ...sianx...
nvm...sianx..than todae..soo sway sia...
mii cum **da yi ma**...worx..
yupp..sianx..liao...
than thurdae..gg..
to watch movies sia..yupp..
sianx..lar....
f*ck lar...
keep scoldin mii...
cannt...tok properly meh..mus scold de meh...
wah...mii birthdae....leh...
cb..cb..cb...cb...lar....
haix...
nvm...relax man....
mus stay cool...
cannt cus of tish...fall dwn...
i mus b strong...
cannt let them tot i nice to bully....
i mus haf my stand...
i gonna..stand STRONG....
I M NOT GOIN TO LET YOU PPL PUSH MII OVER...ANIIMORE...

2005-11-13T19:50:00.000-08:00

haha...
todae..jus came back fm mii chalet...
sooo funn..sia...
on firdae...11nov...
gt bbq...
matthew...poh lee..gladys...lindy
jas n angeline..jamie..darryl...
apple...n the ginnaa...
n apple two ger frenx came...
*esther*...**xiao lala**...
lyk f*ck lor...
lyk shit ar..
dun wan them cum...spolite mii mood..than mii marmie...
piss off wif mii..
cus she tink apple dey all is bad bad de...
but hw can she jugde mii frens by the hair color...
so wat..dey r ah bengs...
but...still gt gd or bad de ma....
sianx...
i hate mii marmie man...
tink she beri great ar...
where gt ppl jugde by looks de...
is the character..most important..de...lor....
still sae..ish mii birthdae..i can invite anii1...end of the dae...
lyk shit..keep saein mii frens....
sianx...
but...i tink the best..dae..is yesterdae ba...
haha...
shoo funny...
cus...
yesterdae...gt buffeet...
haha...than mii de two baby coursin..gt cum worx....
heex...
than...
yesyterdae..
hock heng...ben goh..charles..edmund...matthew...poh lee..gladys...lindy..yixue....mr goh...
ms shahika...n husband
came....haaz....
than..b4..
charles n edmund n yixue came...
we went..to the park to borrow bike...
than mii yyesterdae...
ride bike...but..of cus..ish the...
2ppl de lar...cus mii scare scare ma..haax...
than..ben goh ride infront than mii at the back...
than..after awhile...
change to poh lee..than i reailze...poh lee ride even scary....
at a time..we ride..than she almost...bang on to ppl...
yupp...
than matthew brought mii a ice cream...haha...sooo swt..heex...
haha...than mii n she alomst fall dwn..by tt tym mii reialxe..mii leg...
gt scatches..n mii hands gt blue black...
yupp..
than ard 7+pm...we went back le...
than...hock heng soo funn...
we play..the zhong ji mi ma...
than mii soo sway..drink tt...stoopid drink twice...
haha..than..after tt..we went to cut cake...than.theares...mouth full of cream...
haaz...than..after tt..
we play the true or dare...
than..mii n mathew keep kana..so sway..haaax...
than play..the stoppid kissin game ..haxx...
quite fun lar...cus..poh lee..kana kiss ma..haxxx..
yup...tts abt..it..
yup..maybe...
tis whole ting reail..makes mii happie..but..chin han n aaron turn up...
chin han..turn up..to wish mii than..aaron wanted to tok..sianx...
o haff nth..to tok...i dunoe..lar...
confuse.lor...yupp...
haas..tink tts the best..present..i haf gt...
thankx...to mii frens...

2005-11-07T23:36:00.000-08:00

tts mii n mii sista....

sista 4va ..ya...

mii quite long nber blog liao...
cus tooo busy liao..
sianx....
todae..mii go library agn...
but todae mii , poh lee,yong jia n terraNCE<na ma>
we go eat macdonald breakfast b4..gg to library..yupp..
than after library..we go eat lunch...
yupp...
than after tt..poh lee..came mii house todae..
todae mii marmie...off dae agn..yupp..
sianx..than mii n poh lee..todae we wrap the presents..yupp...
haas...
than todae chat wif...
aaron on-line...i dame piss off by his nick..n deiceded to break off..i tink tts wat we both wld 1 nw ba...
at least we cld reail tink ..do we reail need n love each other...
i need a break...
but i thankx god...
god has send mii frens to comfort mii...
n when i need them most..they are by mii side..always..love them too bittss..
yupp..than today bad news worx...
jing wei dump gladys..omg..shit..i feelin gultiy lorr..majiam i hai them break de...
if i nv break wif aaron..mayyb
jing wei wldnt haf dump gladys...
wat is the world becomin to...
than nw mii worry..lindy..dump chin han...
shit..i shdnt..haf break...shld i..but..mii lyk sum1 else..sianx...
i hate moii self.....sum1...
tell mii wat to do...
yupp..i tink tts all ba...

2005-11-03T22:54:00.000-08:00

todae...is hari yah pusa dae...
soo sianx lorrr...cant go out...
but quite nice larrr todae...
mii marmie n aunty bring mii go watch movie...<flight plan>
yupp..though is nice..but dere is sum parts to mii is rather scary..yupp...sianx..ar..
yupp..1 gd thing mus comment...the threater...dere..the hotdog bun is nice..yupp..soo is the popcorn..heexx...
tink i shall stop here..

2005-11-02T10:30:00.000-08:00

sianx...
mii sooo long nv blog liao..heex...
haiz...nw mii n aaron nt v stable liao..dunnoe y...
is there sumtin wrong...or...we hfnt noe each other well...or even...r we suit ...
sianx...i m rather fan over tis....
than gt guys wana jio mii..tts worst..make mii..more stress abt it...
wat shld i do man....
todae..another sianx + fun dae...
mii n poh lee went to do library duty...wah...shoooo...fun lor...
we play wif our 2junior....haha...1 is nai ma..another is mini boi..heex...
fun siax...haha..than..at ard...
2pm+...mii n poh lee can leave lirary liao..than gladys n lindy...
cum meet us..n we went to heartland mall take neoprint....
soo fun sia....yupp...
mii gonna upload sum of mii todae take the pic liao...hehe...

2005-10-07T23:30:00.000-07:00

todAe..shoo borin..is chinses paper...
sianx man...
haiz...
but nt bad lar...
todae..dear..came moii grandma hz..find mii agn..yupp..
after..tt we reAd the ghost story bks agnn..than..
moii grANdma..cook campbeels soup 4 us..mushroom de...
heex..moii favourite..yupp..
than after eatin we..still eat fruits..wah..dame full sia...
yupp..
than..we watch..cartoon network...
soo sianx lor..than i dame tired..cant stand it..shoo..
i lie dwn on his shoulder n orh orh..sooo
shuang lor...heexx..
nice feelin...yupp..
than todae..ask 1 of his fren jing wei..b moii kor..yupp...
heex..gt 1more kor le..yupp..
wah..todae..shoo happy...
he hug mii orh orh sia..heex...
tink i shall stop here...

2005-10-05T23:40:00.000-07:00

todae..mii go skool le..
but half way..ard..10.30am..marmie..came..to skool fetch mii..
cus i feelin soo unwell...
i gt a dirrheao..yupp..hurt soo much...
than marmie..send mii go ah ma hz...
than when i reach...i call dear hp..
than he came back hm le...
heexx...
yupp..todae...didnt get a chance to miitt dear..cus..
he gt tution todae ma...
than nvm lor...
tution more impotant lar..dun wan him fail examz....
yupp..dear..todae go neighbour hz..go see moii blog..heexx...
yupp...than jus nw..dear..tell mii gt two gers lyk him worx...
make mii nw..feel soo scare..scare...he dump mii...
i dun wan history repeat agn...i nw is whole-heartly lurve him de...

than...dear todae...seemx shoo stress..wish i cld help him...
sianx...

^nv ever leave mii^

2005-10-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

todae..mii didnt go skool worx...
didnt wan to..rather tired..n mii the consipation came back..than went to see a doctor..
yupp..than i wait 4 han ping dear..cum moii grandma hz...
pei mii....than we were lyk chattin as usual..than startin readin sum ghost story books...

yupp..than..than i felt tired..n lie on his shoulder..
n hug him..heex...*blush*...hehe...

he was soo shy lor..heart beat ..jump shoo fast...majaim...
i will eat him up lyk tt...heex...

than we muack muack todae sia...mii dame pai seh lor...

is mii take the 1st move agn de lor...wah lao...
didnt take 1st move...b4...
heex...*blush*...heex...
after all..beri happy lor..
than at ard 5pm..he went to find his frens le..yupp..
than..jus nw he msg mii..worx..sae he wana noe sumtin..abt our relationship..
scare mii...tot he wanted a break-up..if he gonna..break ..tink i will break dwn man..
he onli..ask..whether i will leave him nia...
but of cus..i wunt lor...crazy..y wld i dump him..yupp..

aniway..i did cry abit...yupp..

probably..scare he sae break-up bahh..

heex..
tink i shall stop here..

nv let you go ....

2005-10-03T21:00:00.000-07:00

todae..shoo..happy..aaron came to find mii..than we were at hougang mall library...
wif angeline&geok yong studyin,tokin n drawin..yupp..than at abt...
5pm to 6pm..angeline n aaron walk mii hm lor..yup..

4 e1st tym...
we hold our hands yupp..i make the 1st move de..cus he sae he shy ma..yupp..
*blush*...i jus..cant 4get him...miss him soo much...
it seems tt..tis is a serious 1..lyk hw i treat marc lyk b4..yup..

than tmr..mayb ..he cumin find mii agn..yupp..jus lurve him to biitts...
heex...^wink^...hehehaha...
sooo happy sia...
nah..i jus lurve his eyes soo much...
hehe...his eyes is the 1st tin it attracted mii..hehe...haha...
than todae in library ..see him revise his work..shoo hardworkin...look shoo cute lor..
when he smile...shoo cute...i tink i m madly over him..haha...
yupp..
tink..i shall stoop here..

2005-10-02T19:00:00.000-07:00

todae...
is a nice dae...heex..cus..todae..didnt went to church..cus late ma..hee
than..mii n moi mommy n aunty..went town...at LIDO...SHAW TOWER...
to catch a moive... *cropse bride*...heex..is a nice show..though is cartoon kind....
but..vv touchin..the cropse bride is called *emily*...than the livin..ger n guy is called
^victoria^ & -victor-...nah..is reail touchin man...i dun mind watchin..it agn..
haha..than..after all nt bad lor...
than after tt..we went metro shoopin..cus on sales ma...
is reail sales lyk crazy lor..than i brought 2tops..gt sleeves de...
beri nice sia..most of all..the price is afforable lor...
hee..+still gt discount hu dun wan...heexx..
wah..than..after tt we went..to a restuarant name *east ocean teochew restuarant*
yupp..there e food nt bad lar...exspecially the ^egg tart^ is the best among all
yupp..n the *chao siew bao*..nt bad aso...than after tt..went to TANGS..to shop agn...
yupp..than told moii mom..i tired..than we came hm n rest..
than i sllep abt 1hr+..yupp..than chat on the fone wif aaron..heex..
than we were lyk saein..after examz we r gg out..
yupp..i tink i stop here ba..
!lurvin yew always!

children's dae...sianx..

2005-10-01T23:20:00.000-07:00

todae..is a tirin dae..4 mii...tis mornin at abt...
11am ..i went to church for moii foundation on god...sianx man...
jus 4 the seek of moii mom..than i go de...haiz..than tmr..mus go church..4 youth...
chao ji sianx n tired...than after church tmr..gg town..watch movie...
"cropse bride"..yup..
than jus nw..ard 6.30pm...went tampines wif moi mom...
help out moii uncle agn...than moii two younger coursin came along..
1boi &1ger...beri cute de...than..i carry the ger...she soo cute sia...
yupp..than after...moii younger cousin went back hm...i sneak out..went to miit...
aaron<shy boi>..yupp..yesterdae miit him le..yupp..
than todae..he pei lor..yupp..
he beri dao..n cute..still sae he beri ulgy..
yupp..
hee...
yupp..
tink i shall stop here...

tis few daes ..rather fan over nich...

2005-09-30T23:26:00.000-07:00

sianx man...todae..after skool...go ah ma hz bath n everytin..than go no.4 uncle hz...dere eat...liao than rest 4 awhile...than go tampines there...sell the newpaper...than decieced to mitt up wif..aaron[shyboi]...yupp...than..saw him..kinda of cute lar...b4 miitt him..mi n nich..qurral on fone agn le...i cant stand him animore....he betrayed moii lurve..i m hurtx....than..he lyk dun allow i break wif him...haiz....cus of him..i reaill didnt slp well...shit lAr....y mus nich do tis...i reail gg crazy le....wonderin is nich toyin mii...he seems to b lyk....
tink i wana stop here....
*fadin away*

todae..shooo..happy...

2005-09-23T00:00:00.000-07:00

haha...
todae...after skool...mii shoo happie...
after skool..go do library duty..than after tt..went compass wif..
alice,poh lee,yan hui,geok yong...
than after tt went to hougang mall...than mii go buy...
shilin eat..than go mac buy ice-cream eat...haha...
after tt..went to mit angeline..we tok alot lor..
than tok abt moii ex...shian...sae..he still lyk mii...
haiz..mii where gt gd..y mus b mii neh..
i aso nt gd..soo flirt..sianx lar..
than go jasmine hz dere..buy..duck porrigde eat..haha..
tink mii gg fat sn liao sia...haha...
than next mondae..we gonna miit agn..haha...jus mii n angeline...
yupp...
than after tt...mii n moii dear...
tok on the fone...
than mii gt feelin..tink he fade feelin 4 mii lyk tt...
aiya..beta dun anihw tink...but mii soo lyk him...
scare he hurt mii sia...
tink he wunt lar..
but..haiz..dunnoe lar..
tink...shall end here...
**fadin away**

long long tym didnt blog le..

2005-09-21T22:26:00.000-07:00

sianz..man..mii..shoo..long nv blog...
haiz..mii two daes..nv go skool le..
doctor sae i gt eye infection n sore eyes sia...
but..still nt bad lar...gt moii laogong...tok to mii...
hee...
last few dae...mit angeline...adora...zhen & jas le...
haiz...
beri funny still..mii n angeline go take neo-card..haha...
than...aiya..dunnoe wat to blog le...
stop..here ba...

daes r like yrs 4 mii...

2005-09-15T22:52:00.000-07:00

^^adora^^ [[xiao nuer]]
jamie&jasmine[[san nuer&wu nuer]]
debbie,jamie,huizhen,jasmine

todae..in class..LCE..shoo funnie worx...
mr jamil&mr goh talk abt wat if skool gt no rules...
than dey ask..
hock heng..gerald...charles..herny..peng ho..jeremy..
to perform a skit shoo funnie lor..haha..exspecailly..hock heng dey all the skit..
more funnie..yupp..after all...todae...all the penpal i write to..all relpy liao..
haha...they r all nice guy..lar..yupp..
tis few daes..tinkin of...
*him*...n moii nuers...if 1dae...if dey were to see tis blog...
i hope gt chances tell them...i reail miz them...
no matter wat i still regard them as moii nuers...i jus nitt sumtym..to tink
of our stuff...n lookin into our memories..yupp...
hope tt they cld understand..i reail miz them to bits...
yupp..
stoopp here...
**fadin away**

i cut moi hair todae...

2005-09-13T21:04:00.000-07:00

todae skool quite nice lar...todae alot of ppl nv cum skoll....
even *him* aso nv cum....haiz...sianx...but..sumtin gd is...tt stupid irratin..herny pang...
didnt cum skool...wah ..thank god man...reail hate him to the core...nv seen a guy..shooo
rough..n voilent to gers b4..he is the 1st 1...omg...todae jus went to compass for a hair cut at
supercut..wah lao..ask e person cut abit..dun cut moi fringe..than cut shoo mani..worst
of all still cut moii fringe..but after all,nt shoo bad...it turns out to b nice but..jus a little too short lor
than..ask moi laoma..whether..moii hair nice ma...she sae okok lor..haiz...
sianz man...two more mths moii birthdae cumin le..shoo happy...
wana ask *him* go leh..but dun dare...dotx...
hee..
tink shall end here...